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The stars lean down to kiss you…

{ July 27, 2009 @ 1:34 am } · { Change, Random thoughts }
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And I lie awake…I miss you.

So I have decided to move on.

“Martin” doesn’t deserve my time.

Fucking stoner.

Anyway. Tonight I talked to this boy “Frank” for hours (like 5 hours) on the phone, and it ended in a nice web cam chat. He’s in the Air Force, and he’s pretty neat. He comes back from training in Texas next month, so we’re gonna hang out.

I’m gonna be glad when school starts up again, so i’ll stop feeling the need to go on dates and have someone fill my time. I also wish work would pick up again. Maybe i’ll ask for a few shifts at my old crappy job.

Yesterday I saw Marko perform at Subterranean Sound. I seriously love him. He’s such a good friend to me, and when he’s up on stage, I feel like a proud mother. Lol.

I got some good “weaves” *cough cough* right now, so i’m gonna get blazed as much as I can this week. You are all welcome to come and enjoy as well. Gotta love a good bag of weaves.

My life is super boring right now I guess. I’ll update more later. Hopefully. I’m sure my blog is pretty pissed at me right now for not updating ever. Oh well. I’ve been reading a lot.

Finally time for an update.

{ January 21, 2009 @ 1:35 am } · { Bones, Change, College, Gotta love Torrent, Health, Life, Random thoughts }
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So nothing worth noting has been going on in my life until today. I’ve pretty much just watched Bones, hung out with people, and read a lot during break. I’ve done some other stuff, but it’s not important. Let me just break down this post.

  • I have decided to join an archeology club. They have one called the Litchfield Hills Archeology Group or something and it looks super interesting. I have always wanted to go on a dig, and they do digs during the summer. I might even take a class or two at Southern about it.
  • I want to start a book club. It will meet once a month, but I have yet to decide where to hold it. I’d like to find people who are interested first, so then we can find a place that is convenient for all.
  • I am applying to libraries in the surrounding areas of my town, and I really hope I find something. I would love to work at a library.
  • I want to volunteer (or work) at the Clockwork Repertory Theater. When I was looking them up on the internet, I found that they did a Murder Mystery Thriller play last year, and I would love being involved with something like that.
  • I honestly want to find better people to be around. I am tired of people taking me for granted and I want to make new contacts and expand my social circle. The things I’ve mentioned above are going to better my life, and possible help me network and find more opportunities. My therapist has been helping me a lot with this, and I can’t wait to start doing more with my life.
  • Classes start up on Monday. I honestly do not want to go. I am going to be so stressed until I can find classes to fill the gaps. I also want to drop exercise science because I have a gym membership, and I don’t want to take a class that I can easily get waived. I have to concentrate on finding classes that I really need to take, like a LANGUAGE. At this rate I’ll be taking a language until I graduate. Ugh. I pretty much decided to take Spanish. Since everything is being written in English and Spanish, it couldn’t hurt.
  • Soon I will start working on my case against the insurance company. I am nervous, but eager to put this all behind me so I can finally heal. I can still see the scar from the seat belt and it is a reminder that I am so lucky to be alive. That is why I got the tattoo I did. ( In case I forgot to mention I got a tattoo that says “I’m Alive” on my left breast. It was the closest I could get to my heart and I love it.) I have to keep telling myself to live my life. I need to do what I want to do for a change, and stop being scared. It’s time to put myself first for once. I am quite excited.
  • I need to go to the gym more. Ever since the accident I got lazy. I gained all the weight I lost over the summer back. It bothers me. I want to be healthier. I also have got to stop this on and off smoking thing. Weed and Camels. Ugh. It does not help, trust me. A few minutes of intensive running on the treadmill and I’m just about gasping for breath. When I smoke, my lungs and chest hurt pretty bad. Mostly it’s when I smoke weed. Honestly, I am going to stop. Ask me in a month if I did, and you’ll be satisfied with your answer. I don’t get addicted to things so it’s easy for me to quit. Quite easy actually…as long as I just resist the temptation. I swear, one day I’m going to knock that devil off my shoulder and give the angel a cookie! ( Strange enough the Angel looks like David Borneaz. Hottie!)
  • I have fallen in love with Bit Torrenting. I downloaded all five seasons of Angel, all four seasons of Bones (I know, it’s an addiction), all six seasons of Family Guy, and the original Buffy The Vampire Slayer movie with Kristy Swanson, Donald Sutherland, David Arquette, and the fabulous Luke Perry (in his prime). Ben Affleck and Ricki Lake make slight appearances as well. I highly recommend this movie. Who cares if it’s cheesy? It’s cheesy at it’s best. :) I have also downloaded a few other things.

I am hanging out with Nicholas tomorrow before NVCC starts on Thursday and the Optimum Online guys just got here to fix the box that has been making my internet all wacky. (Yeah, it’s 1:30 am…I know) So I say it is time for bed. Goodnight. <3

And now I can’t post it because the internet is down again! UGH. There are two cop cars and two Optimum trucks out there. Fix my internet and let me go to sleep! Sheesh.